||[Feb. 19th, 2008|09:58 am]
Lady Sasuke's thoughts and meditations
Its strange how I stray away from this thing and still I've gotten the urge to write once more because Muse tells me to. Same goes for my roleplaying on Gaia and coloring inspiration. Muse has been a sweet little inspiration yet she takes so many vacations when I really don't want her to *sighs*
Seeing its the begining of the year (well for me still at least) I suppose I should update and keep others from worrying about me. Though I really wonder who does anymore... senseless thought I know.
Anyway, lets start with the basics shall we? First off my parents have been in this fighting match for quite a while now. Every day I wake up to the same crap of yelling and screaming which might I add is mostly my mother. Dad seems to think he can control her in the spending department, and frankly she's gotten fed up with it to a point of hatred and loathing. Day in and day out I hear things that sicken my stomach more and more. To top this off dad is borderline permanent diabetic and refuses to listen to anyone regarding the situation. Not even the doctor can make him listen. He just wants to consume everything that he shouldn't and if its not accessible here, he just goes out and buys it somewhere else. He always says how he doesn't care or he thinks he should leave like a reprimanded prisoner. To tell you the truth, its tearing my mother apart that he even acts this way. So yeah homelife from hell... teacups full of firewater and brimstone in this snug little abode.
I hate it! I hate being here dealing with this garbage. The only reason I moved back is because I sucked in my pride and realized I stumbled worse than I knew trying to be independent on my own. But when one person is footing the finances it never works and you slowly drown until you're a babbling corpse wishing for life. Been there, done that, its the past not the present, onward to a new frontier. At least the credit cards from hell are slowly being paid off and my student loan has been on time for almost two years now. In that view I feel more confident about being a bit responsible at least.
Then there's my hobbies which some of you know I've gotten ridiculously addicted to watching Naruto since Walmart had the boxsets for 25.00 a piece. I've sat and enjoyed the series in uncut form and I can say that Cartoon Network has destroyed yet another good anime with a plot for once. So call me a Narutard or whatever you want... I like the anime *breathes easier*
Then Gaia still resides in my life of course where I practice new coloring patterns and bring my horses to life. Talking like that I remind myself of when I was little *chuckles*
I finally got my Pharaoh Atemu and Tamahome soquili and all is good. There's two more coming that I won't say what they are, but when they do I will feel complete except a certain couple and a merhorse yet.
Other than that I'm looking forward to Tekko and Otakon hopefully as time shouldn't be an issue. I really need to get a hold of a watering can to start on Suiseiseki's "sui dream" before August. So I think I'll trod off to bed now that I've gotten a bit off my chest. Better than curling in a ball and wishing the world would fade away. Trust me its not as nice as it sounds.
Let the sun shine through.